ResiLience

My life is a box of Chocolatte'

2005-04-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

M@rina'S all time Favourite

2005-04-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

All time FAV songs:

Marc Anthony 'MyBaby You'
Joe 'I Wanna Know'
Alicia Keys 'If I Ain't Got U'
Al Green 'Lets Stay Together'
Aretha Franklin 'It Hurts Like Hell'
Boyz to Men 'I'll Make Love to You'
Barbra Streisand & Bryan Adams 'I Finally Found Someone'
Clay Aiken 'The Way'
Eamon 'Dont Want You Back'
Tamia 'Officially Missing You'
Gavin Degraw 'I Don't Want to Be'
Jagged Edge 'All Out of Love'
Keith Sweat 'Nobody'
LL Cool J 'Love You Better'
Los Lonely Boys 'Heaven'
Luther Vandross 'Dance with my Father'
Boyz to Men 'A Song for Mama'
Mario 'Let Me Love You'
Marvin Gaye 'Aint No Mountain High Enough'
Tamia feat Fabolous 'I'm so Into You'
Richard Marx 'Now & Forever'
Ronan Keating 'When you Say Nothing at All'
Selena 'Dreaming of You'
Simple Plan "Perfect'
Simple Plan 'Welcome to My Life'
Staind 'Its Been Awhile'
Steve Curtis Chapman 'I'll Be Here'
Switchfoot 'Dare you to Move'
The Killers 'Somebody Told Me'
Chaka Kahn 'Through the Fire'
Usher "Confessions'
Usher & Alicia Keys 'My Boo'
Yellowcard 'Only One'
Whitney Houstan & Cece Winans 'Count on Me'
Mary J.Blige 'Not Gon' Cry'
Blackstreet 'Dont' leave Me'
Switchfoot 'Meant to Live'
The Cardigans 'Erase & Rewind'
Jesse Mcartney "Beautiful Soul'
Usher,Ludacris & Lil Jon 'Lovers & Friends

All the THINGS your man WON't dO

2005-04-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hey, loveYou say you need someone

To be there for you To love you all night long,

huhIt's kinda funny but I don't think you have to look no further

Because I'm right here And I'm ready To do all the things your man won't do

Tell me what kind of man Would treat his woman so cold

Treat you like you're nothin'When you're worth more than gold

Girl, to me you're like a diamondI love the way you shine

A hundred million dollar treasure I'll give the world to make you mine

[La, la, la, la, la]I'll put a string a pearls right in your hand

Make love on a beach of jet black sand Outside in the rain

we can do it all night Out to tour the places he would not

And some you never knew would get you hot Nothin' is forbidden when we touch

Baby, I wanna do All of the things your man won't do

I'll do them for you (Whoa)Baby, I wanna do (Hey)

All of (All of) the things your man won't do

(Every little thing)I'll do them for you (Yeah)I'll take you out on a night cruise

On a yacht, just can't lose??Cause we got a lot to look forward to1-2, what ya gonna do

What good is a diamond nobody can see it I hear he got you on lock down

But I got the master key, yeah[La, la, la, la, la]

I'll light a thousand candles all around Show me to the subway,

I'll go down Nothin' can be sweeter than the sound of makin' love

Baby, when I start I just can't stopI'll love you from the bottom to the top

Nothin' is forbidden when we touchBaby (Baby),

I wanna do (Hey...)All of the things your man won't do (Every little)

I'll do them for you (Ooh...)Baby, I wanna do (I wanna do, yeah)

All of the things your man won't do (Oh)I

'll do them for you (Yeah)And oh...oh...yeah...yeah...oh, yeah

Oh [La, la, la, la, la]I'll light a thousand candles all around

Show me to the subway, I'll go down

Nothin' can be sweeter than the sound of makin' love

Baby, when I start I just can't stop

I'll love you from the bottom to the top Nothin' is forbidden when we touch, ooh , yeah

Baby, I wanna do (Oh)All of the things your man won't do

(I'm gonna, I'm gonna, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh)

I'll do them for you (Ho)Baby (Baby), I wanna do (I wanna do)

All of the things your man won't do (And oh, yeah)

I'll do them for you Ooh, I got a jones in my bones for you

There ain't a damn thing that I won't do

I'll make your body cream with my sex machine

I won't stop until I hear your mother screamBaby,

I wanna do (I wanna do)All of the things your man won't do

(Whoa, oh, oh, ho, ah, yeah, yeah, hmm)

I'll do them for youBaby, I wanna do (Wanna do)

All of the things your man won't do (Yeah, whoa...whoa...)

I'll do them for you (I wanna do it for you, baby)

Baby, I wanna do All of the (Oh, whoa) things your man won't do

I'll do them for you Baby (Oh, yeah), I wanna do

All of the things your man won't do (Oh, yeah, oh, yeah)

I'll do them for youBaby, I wanna do

All of the things your man won't do I'll do them for you

I really luv this song....i think its one of Joe's latest song, i 've been a fan of him for ages since his hit single came out..."I wanna know" totally luv this song.It makes me wonder where is this guy who's gonna make me happy like this song did..can any guy be as perfect as Joe??

How do we DeFINE beauty?

2005-04-07T11:27:00.000+08:00

Beautiful,handsome,hunky,cute,drop-dead gorgeous,fine-ass chick..these are the words that come through my mind when i think of the vocabs in which people love to characterize someone based on their physical looks.Well how do we actually define the beauty of a person?Is it that we focus more on the physical outlook or the inner beauty(as in the personality,the goodness of the heart)?I know both of these 2 views sound cliche but we can't deny the fact that these 2 views(i would call it) are the vital perspectives in which people apply to define beauty.Personally i feel that these 2 views of physical outlook & inner beauty are important in defining the beauty of a person.Both of these views must be balance with one another to achieve the solid definition of beauty.The problem is people tend to overlook both of these views by only paying attention to 1 of them(views) & the only possible & so-called 'realistic' view is the physical outlook.The reason why i called it realistic is because physical outlook is what people see first when they meet someone & we can't help it when there is a beautiful woman or handsome man,off course we will automatically judge the person by his/her physical outlook.I won't deny the fact that it feels good to look at beautiful things but i believe it is not essential to survive on earth.The problem with people's attitude & perception of beauty is they tend or i would say they love to worship that particular beauty without actually considering other factors.It is when they get hit by a 'love tsunami'(marina@copywright) which means the sappy heartbroken- got-dumped situation, that they realize beauty isn't everything.

Now i'll enter to the harsher defintion of beauty.

This is so typical & cliche of people especially me when it somes to women/chicks. As long as the girls are slim and fair,it is considered gorgeous to the.well, i think thats lame & super low minded! that is not the definition of beauty.Have they ask themselves whether features play an important role.A woman or a man may not have the overall beauty,nobody has, but certain features probably at their face is the imprtant factor in characterizing a beauty.To me, flat nose is not pretty to me or wide forehead(no offense) but nonetheles he or she may have some other beauty qualities.The problem is there is no need to make a fuss how gorgeous that person is because no one is.Only Gos is beautiful.What we see are only temporary beauty which can make our eyes go blind.Nonetheless, there is no harm in aspiring those beautiful things and people to make ourselves a better person.Sometimes i don't understand how people characterize beaty.I feel sometimes people are just plain blind and say other people are beautiful just for the sake of saying.to me, to say a person is beautiful is when the physical features is just gorgeous plus with an excellent personality,it just makes the person totally gorgeous.I really hate the Malaysian Malay entertainment industry which is full of crap(not all) and full of untalented actors/singers who are wannabes.They are so hypocrite and basically they are assholes!! There is this show who portrays a stupid asshole girl acitng in a stupid production which has no purpose in life at all & think she's a princess!! how odd & asshole is that!God i could talk for hours abt idiotic people but i choose to stop now.

What i want to say is beauty isn't everything, people get hurt everyday because of beauty. And people please widened your scope and horizon when it somes to defining beauty because what exists now are so cliche & typical of people and society.I just can't stand this beauty-gorgeous thing when actually they look like horse or shit (my term).Thanks for reading if you do read**

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The 'thing' with poetry

2005-04-06T14:11:00.000+08:00

If anybody realize in my blog i post a few poems in which personally i think touches my heart and many wouldn't have known that i' m not exactly the 'poetry' type of person.I prefer to express my feelings in a direct way but i don't hate poetry.Its just that i had some bad experiences with my lecturers when i learned poetry.What i understand from studying poetry is what we perceive,understand and analyse about poems are our own personal interpretation and it should be accepted as part of the learning process.Although i find it difficult at first to understand poetry bcoz of the style of language,but nonetheless it was interesting & unique in its own way.Most importantly,the poets wrote their poems based on no rules & they wrote what they were feeling & thinking about.But my so-called qualified lecturers especially this particular lecturer(a woman) did not seem to share the same idea of understanding poetry,she limit & restricted the scope of students' understanding & analysing of poetry.It seems that she only wants her accepted interpretation & thats wrong.At least she should have the courtesy to discuss & state what she wants in the so-called 'right' interpretation.Instead she cause a disaster in which it has affect my life in a certain way.So i had this perception of poetry is a waste of time.However,reading back all the excellent & talented poems in literature,i can't help the fact that poerty is indeed a beautiful art of language & i should appreciate it as a student of English literature.The movie 'A Love Song for Bobby Long' contains beautiful poems from Robert Frost & T.S Elliot, and it have inspired me to connect myself again with poetry.I'm so glad & happy that i'm able to appreciate poetry although it takes time for me to understand it(its been awhile since i studied poetry).Nonetheless, the few poems i have chosen to post in my blog are a good start for me to indulge myself more deeply into poetry.Who knows, i might write my own poems one day.

A Best Friend

2005-04-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

A best friend is always there, whether you need advice, or a pep talk, or even a shoulder to cry on. A best friend listens with her heart and is always honest with you, even though the truth may not be what you want to hear. A best friend knows all your secrets, understands your fears shares your dreams. A best friend never stops believing in you even if you give up on yourself. you are that kind of friend to me. And no matter what happens, you always will be. You are my best friend.... my forever friend.

I dedicate this poem to my dear friend fir, who has been a great & lovely friend during the years of our friendship.He is indeed a very smart & enthusiast person in which he is admired dearly.We've been through a lot during our studying years together & he has helped me with great deal, never expecting any return for it.He is indeed a patience & humble person.We share a lot in common especially in achieving our dreams.This poem is simple yet very meaningful (at least to me) & i dedicate this poem to fir in remembering the memories of our friendship after the heartbroken & devastation we faced together which test our friendship to a limit in which both of us never expect it to be.

Love and Friendship by Emily Bronte

2005-04-06T00:44:00.000+08:00

Love is like the wild rose-briar,

Friendship like the holly-tree?

The holly is dark when the rose-briar blooms

But which will bloom most constantly?

The wild-rose briar is sweet in the spring,

Its summer blossoms scent the air;

Yet wait till winter comes again

And who will call the wild-briar fair?

Then scorn the silly rose-wreath now

And deck thee with the holly's sheen,

That, when December blights thy brow,

He may still leave thy garland green.

Love's Philosophy by Percy Bysshe Shelley

2005-04-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

The fountains mingle with the river

And the rivers with the ocean,

The winds of heaven mix for ever

With a sweet emotion;Nothing in the world is single,

All things by a law divine

In one another's being mingle?Why not I with thine?

See the mountains kiss high heaven,

And the waves clasp one another;

No sister-flower would be forgiven

If it disdain'd its brother;

And the sunlight clasps the earth,

And the moonbeams kiss the sea?

What are all these kissings worth,

If thou kiss not me?

F@rewell to Love by Michael Drayton

2005-04-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Since there's not help, come let us kiss and part;
Nay, I am done, you get no more of me;
And I am glad, yea, glad with all my heart,
That thus so cleanly I myself can free;
Shake hands for ever, cancel all our vows,
And when we meet at any time again,
Be it not seen in either of our brows
That we, one jot of former love retain.
Now, at the last gasp of love's latest breath,
When his pulse failing, passion speechless lies,
When faith is kneeling by his bed of death,
And innocence is closing up his eyes,
Now, if thou woulds't, when all have given him over,
From death to life Thou might'st him yet recover.

Into My Own by Robert Frost

2005-04-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

One of my wishes is that those dark trees, So old and firm they scarcely show the breeze, Were not, as 'twere, the merest mask of gloom, But stretched away unto the edge of doom.
I should not be withheld but that some day Into their vastness I should steal away, Fearless of ever finding open land, Or highway where the slow wheel pours the sand.
I do not see why I should e'er turn back, Or those should not set forth upon my track To overtake me, who should miss me here And long to know if still I held them dear.
They would not find me changed from him they knew-- Only more sure of all I thought was true.

I Don't Want to Be...by Gavin Degraw

2005-04-05T22:14:00.001+08:00

I really admire & luv this song...such a great piece by Gavin himself.This song really suits & fits what i feel about the people around me & life as a whole itself.Its just great,if only words could describe how i feel.
"All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I've got to do or who I'm supposed to be I don't want to be anything other than me"
This chorus is just what my feelings are about & i don't expect people to understand me or this song,its just an expression of mind.I don't care about what people think or say, what i'm aware of is Gavin's I Dont Want to Be is a great piece of music in the 21st century.

I don't need to be anything otherThan a prison guard's sonI don't need to be anything otherThan a specialist's sonI don't have to be anything otherThan the birth of two souls in onePart of where I'm goingis knowing where I'm coming fromI don't want to beAnything other than what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meI'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turnI'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turnI'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turnAm I the only one who noticed?I can't be the only one who's learnedI don't want to beAnything other than what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meCan I have everyone's attention please?If you're not like this and thatyou're gonna have to leaveI came from the mountainThe crust of creationMy whole situtaion-made from clay to stoneAnd now I'm telling everybodyI don't want to beAnything other that what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meI don't want to be